Overload

There are some things weighing heavy on my heart right now. Things that I will share once I have a better handle on it.  I am just asking God to guide me in the right direction. When I wake to feed Paxton at 4 am, I am praying and asking for guidance. When I lay my head to rest at night, I pray and doze off mid prayer. I am hoping God understands my exhaustion.  These added worries are only making me more tired.  As a Mother, I will do whatever is needed for my children, but sometimes the starting point is the hardest place to find.  My heart walks around in these little children that my husband and I created, and it is powerful beyond words. I think back to all that we have endured this past year and I am confident that this too shall pass.  When I feel overwhelmed I stop, breathe and look around at all of the blessings bestowed upon us.  God never gives us more than we can handle and while some days I feel like a failure as a Mother. An gem of a friend told me this, "Jen, you are the most amazing Mother, I am not just saying that. God obviously agrees with me because he thinks you have the strength and love to handle those sweet boys". I tucked that statement away in my heart for days when I feel responsible for what I ultimately have no control over.  

One of my all time favorite quotes is this and lately I go back to it and remind myself how true it is.  

 

As a Mother my job is to take care of what is possible and trust God with the impossible.

I am hoping to be able to share yet again how the Wild Wild Wests will rise above another measly speed bump in the journey we call life.