Buh Bye

What a week it's been. Easy for me to say since Paxton was the one who actually endured it. Really though, I seriously felt like he looked at me and said Mom this is nothing compared to two open heart surgeries.

                                                                         (Pre- Op)

                                                            (Post-Op- Holy Swollen Batman)

He spent at least 24 hours between the two days with no food in his belly and handled it like a man!  He had his old feeding tube removed through (gag) his throat and a new one put in. I mean people, there's a hole in his belly and you would think he had a mosquito bite. The kid could care less.  It's quite impressive!

So today we said a BUH and a BYE to his old peg g-tube!

                                                  (Ghetto bath at the hotel :)

And a HELLO to his brand new, shiny mickey button. No tube to try and pull out. Just a cute lil button now.

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Paxton and I missed out on a lot of the new mom/baby bonding time in the beginning. He spent more than the first sixty days of his life in a hospital bed.  There was no sleeping with Momma and snuggling. He was in his mini jail and I was at Ronald McDonald house, so as hard as this time away from his brothers is, I realize I am grateful for it because Paxton and I are catching up on our bonding.  When I see these pictures (some clearly i phone, some kick a*# canon) that we took together because we were well...bored in between hospital trips, I realize this little boy loves me so very much.  I know that while we may not have been able to snuggle in bed together, it's clear he knows that I have been the one person who has been there from day one through all of his struggles. This has bonded us more than I could have ever hoped for.  Today several people, nurses and a friend, tried to soothe him as we waited. He was tired, hungry and they all tried soothing him to sleep to no avail, but as soon as I took him he laid his head on my shoulder and went to sleep.  My heart swelled.

My sweet, sweet miracle boy!  I am so proud of you once again!  Whatever is put in your path you mow over like it's nothing. You win over the hearts of anyone that meets you and I sit with you on my lap, glowing and proud.

My cup runneth over Paxie!

~J