Why Hello There
It's hard to believe its been a month since I have last posted. It has been weighing heavily on my mind, as has other stuff and truth is the other stuff won. Thank you to the readers who have reached out to make sure that we are ok and to let us know you have missed us. Truly, you made my days. So I have been living in this pendulum between insanely grateful and scared to death. I am not sure if just over a year puts it all into perspective or what, but my fear that seemed to be controlled, although in hindsight was just to busy to grasp, is now in full force. I cannot get over this nagging feeling that something is going to happen to Paxton. I don't know what it is and I am in a full fledged boxing match over the conclusion that it's mothers intuition or just plain fear/anxiety. Paxton is so amazing. Oh he's so happy. Sees the rainbow instead of the rain. Makes lemonade whenever there are lemons. If I could just be like him we'd be all right....